Saturday, March 13, 2021

Life hates us now. / Mafumafu ("Inochi ni Kirawareteiru")

 "Never say you want to die."

"Live on without giving up!"

They say everybody should sing a song like that.


Frankly, we don't care a bit if we, ourselves died, but we'd be pretty sad id the people around us died, 

It should be ego somehow, that goes like, 

"Because we just wouldn't like to be sad."


Not caring if strangers are living or not, 

and hating someone else merely like some kinds of trends and fashion,

 but we still say " Let's live in peace" nevertheless? 


What a wonderful thing that would be indeed...


Some dies on the other side of the screen, 

and someone sings for the loss, 

and an influenced boy 

ran off carrying a knife.


Life hates us now

Squeezing out our values and ego,

we easily broadcast song s about 

killing somebody on radio waves.


Life hates us now.

We say "we don't want our life"

As if life is always there.

Life hates us now.


Since we've got no money, we enjoy idle sleeps throughout the day.

Never finding the meaning of our lives, we still continue to breathe realizing we are nothing .

"I fell lonely", 

these three words is not expressive enough for this wound,

Carrying nothing but such obstinacy today again I lie on my bed alone.


We who were but youths

at some point change to young adults.

Growing old, one day we go down like fallen leaves,

without a soul in the world knowing our end...


Obtaining an immortal body,

and living our whole existence without dying...

... we daydream about science fictions like that.


We don't care a bit if we died, 

but still, we want others to live.

They might say it is wrong to 

live with such contradictions.


"Things that are 'correct' should stay 'correct'."

"if you don't want to die, then live."

If you're going to be sad and if that's fine,

then you gotta laughing solitude forever.


Life hates us now

Never understanding what "happiness" is,

we just hate the life we are given,

and curse the pasts we had.


Life hates us now

Simply cherishing the idea of the word "goodbye",

without knowledge of what a true farewell is,

Life hates us now


Happiness,

Farewells,

affections,

and friendship;

they're all illusions


We might just die tomorrow you know, 

everything might just end up being nothing.


Moring 

and nights, 

spring 

and autumn, 

unchanging, someone dies somewhere.


I don't need dreams or even a tomorrow, 

As long as you are still here, that's all we need.


Yeah...

That's actually

What I want to sing about .


Life hates us now

In the end, we'll die anyway.

You will,

I will,

one day all of us will rot away like fallen leaves.


But regardless, we live on frantically--

Shouldering our lives, frantically, we live --

Killing, 

struggling, 

laughing, 

shouldering it all,

live

live, live

live, live, live, 

live, live, live, live--

Just live.











Thursday, March 4, 2021

It's all fine, I'm sure someone just turned into an invisible person...

 平気だよきっと誰かが 透明人間あてにした

Tuesday, February 23, 2021

 im too insane to explain and you are too normal to understand...

We are not same

Some alien sometime asks why is that I am not on SNS? what do think it is? Of Couse, it's boring.. what does the meaning SNS could have without any friend?  

 day by day I realize more and more how fucked up this world is...

 A listener needs a listener too..

 😭

Help me ~

I want to run, 

I want to free, 

I want to smile, 

Will I ever find my way? 

It's been eating me little by little, 

 i don't want to stay....

It's like you gotta stay busy so you don't get caught up in your thoughts...


 Sometimes a hug is everything a person needs...

Are you selfish too?

 

 im saying goodbye little by little and no one notices....

 im used to being alone. however, it weights heavy sometimes...

Why am I crying..???? 😭

 I'm in my head again...

Loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere..

I know what it feels like to be lonely and invisible...


 Someday you will find your place in the world..


Monday, February 22, 2021

 I just don't seem worth anymore..

Who do you see in front of your mirror?  

 Have you ever wonder why do we have limitation? why does everyone not same? why does every colure have millions of shades? why are we human?

 Have you ever  thought just how much lonely a God could be? I am sure it must be painful...

they feel too..

 Society? Modern? Development? Sorry, I have already lost my interest.

#StopRape

Hey, am I exist? 😭😭

am I not a ghost, right...???

I could always stay silent alone in class, day by day.. weeks by weeks.. and years by years too.

I could always eat my lunch alone...

 

 Hehehe, that's okay....

nothing's new though 

Am I weird ?
Then why did those my classmate says?

Why is there no one beside me? 

Teacher said to do group project right?

 

 Am I really that bad?

why

Why are people so complicated?  

 At least, let me have some good time...

I wish

 I wish I had a friend...

whom I could laugh with...

Slap me

 Someone slap me hard to get back to reality...

Sunday, February 21, 2021

Friend.....

 are we friend, though?

is it okay to be have friend? i dunno

Bullying

 One of the most digesting thing one can do...

God, why are silent? 😢

Have you asked?

    Have you ever thought why does every one of us is dissatisfy with our life or things as such? why can't we be happy or at least satisfy with whatever we have? why are we lonely even though we have hundreds of friends on SNS?? How can you smile or why does things make you cry? and who exactly are you? hehehe...  

My blood sweat tears,
My cold breath
Take it all..... ♥🕊

 I have met so many heroes in my life

Gave me the strength and courage to survive
Gave me the power to smile everyday
Now it's my turn to be the one to make you smile 🌸

Life hates us now. / Mafumafu ("Inochi ni Kirawareteiru")

  "Never say you want to die." "Live on without giving up!" They say everybody should sing a song like that. Frankly, we...